Perspective

So. it's been a while. and a whole lot of nothing has happened. And I've been feeling a bit off about everything for weeks, but then i thought about perspective. So I'm trying to change it.

The bad things.

• I haven't kept up with my creature making (boo)

• the diet went out the window for a few weeks, and now i have to start again (boo)

• there's been losses and illness a lot in the family of late

• General stresses, like dissertation pressure and deciding what to do with my life and such like

• Lack of sleep for quite a long while due to the above... haven't slept well in about 2 weeks now, what is that about?

• And an awful lot of procrastination, mostly cause I'm always exhausted!!

• Plus a general load of winter dread. Dark and cold is misery.

But regardless I'm still hopeful (I think :p) after looking at it like this.

I now have direction. I finally decided what I'm doing when i leave uni (with my super duper first please if you're listening degree fairy!!). I'd been tearing my hair out over it for ages, but know I know. I'm probably gunna have to take a year out now, cause I've decided too late. But that's not the worst thing I suppose. I could do with a break from all the assignments and stuff anyway!! I'm gunna get a general job and do loads of experience in schools around it for a year or so, then I'm going to do a PGCE or SCITT (think I'd prefer a scitt since I can do that from home). Then I'm gunna teach for a while. Get married and settled a bit. Then I'm doing a doctorate in educational psychology, and then I'm gunna try and change the world a little bit at a time :) (really REALLY little bits at a time)

I start experience in a school tomorrow, my first day! and i just know I'm gunna love it! excited is an understatement!

I am also starting my first paying job in January. It's a research project assistant job, and I'm basically going into schools and helping to test the best way to motivate kids. If the results are good, it could potentially change everything about how teachers teach and are taught to teach in the future, and I find it exciting! (plus it's 8.08 an hour, which is real snazzy for my first job i think!) The extra plus is that because it's through the uni, they have no problem fitting around my timetable, which has been the major hurdle till now.

My diet IS going to take off again. I keep creeping down a bit every now and then, but now it's gunna go a bit steadier if you please! I just want a bit more off and a bit more toning. A size 8 bum to match the rest of me would be nice ;) thankfully, I've got the girls backing me up on this one, we're going for our first run tonight.... wish us luck!! :s

I have bought all but 5 prezzies for Christmas, and I've already decided what two of those are, i just can't order them till I go home for Christmas. The other 3 are going to be really easy to pick up between now and then. So that's all done, and my bank account isn't so sore for doing it :) yaay!! (in fact I might wrap them now cause I'm so excited!!)

I have ethical approval a whole month before we need to have it done by, and I'm starting my first recordings to build my study this week (hopefully). No matter how behind I feel like I am, I'm actually ahead. I need to remember that without getting lazy and stop giving myself the permission to worry over it day and night.

Only 4 weeks of uni left before the holidays. As terrifying as this is in some ways, (like work or how quickly my last year is disappearing) I am also really looking forward to some time at home.



So yeah. I'm hoping to get myself to be looking up instead of down over the next few days. Here's hoping!

Best plan ever!!

Ok, so i just thought of an excellent money making scheme!!

I'm going to join multiple TV and film extra agencies on line, and sit back and see what happens. I could get nothing. Or I could get some job invites, but at £70-£100 a day and no joining fees, it seems like an excellent thing to do! I could make my a mini fortune for a student, or nothing may come of it, but with nothing to lose, it seems legit!

The independent featured a site especially for students called Uni-versalExtras, who i am going to join, and I've also come across one called StarNow that seems good, think I'll join that too. Dunno if I'll do any more straight away, but I might if not much comes of these two. I want to do it today, but my hair is all pre-hippie right now, so I can't take the shots I need today, but as soon as I can, I'm doing it!!

On another note, I'm sure some of you (I hope) are wondering why you haven't come across any weekly creatures on my blog yet? Well, I though it would be ridiculous to do a weekly blog about one little creature, so at the end of every month, I'm gunna do a blog about everyone I've created in that month. Kinda seems a bit more sensible.

7 days till loan!!!!! I'm so excited I may do a little cry!! :p although I'm more excited about the other two thirds, as circumstances mean I have a lot less to play with this third, a month extra rent than the rest, a month extra phone bill, an accidental overdraft etc etc. But hey, at least I'll be back in the black... for a bit :p No really, I'm gunna try so hard not to overdraft anymore. especially at the end.

Something I'm really scared about atm? Dissertation. Bumfluff!! Even typing it gets me sweaty :/
Something I'm really excited about atm? Moving back in with my girlys!! I need to introduce them to strawberry wine!!
Something I'm Proud of atm? My diet is going really well (except yesterday, but even that wasn't too bad tbh)
Something I'm not proud of? well yesterday's diet i suppose :p Also my lack if dissertation prep. But hopefully i have time to fix that!!

Peace out brah!!

ahh, what a beautiful package!!

Ok, so hi again guys... it's been a while!

No creature as of yet this week, but I've still got a few days to knock one together... for those of you who don't know, I have vowed to make a creature a week for around a year... think it's gunna have to be longer actually cause i need more than 52, but hey. There is a purpose, but if I told you, that would spoil the surprise, wouldn't it!! *ominous arm waves*

Right, ok, so onto the matter at hand. I decided the thing that i love to death is independent shops/boutiques/on line businesses etc. Especially when you can really see the time and effort the people have put in. I just love personal stuff, and these little places are often more honest in pricing and also really take to time to make it personal.

So my most recent find is to do with jewellery. It's a site called Charming Grace, which you can find here :)

It's some really nice stuff, all handmade so you know it's unique etc. Moreover, i loved the personal touches in the packaging, so lovely... look!!

I LOVE the old matchbox idea, and they even lined the bottom with pretty paper, such attention to detail!!

It's also always nice to get a hand written note, truly lovely!! plus the stuff is really good, even better than i expected :)

Other things i have come across recently is  Jimmy and his Girl, another jewellery site, which is not as good a quality but is still good and also cheaper, definitely worth the look. I ordered from them back in June, and the royal mail royally messed up, and didn't deliver it and lost it etc, and as soon as i got in touch with JAHG, they dispatched another recorded delivery straight away no problem, so lovely!!

Also, here is the site of a craft shop called Make do and Mend that i originally got to charming grace from. It is a little craft store, with a heavy influence on knitting as i understand it. I admit i haven't been yet, because it's in Chelmsford, and i don't often go there, but it sounds really nice, and i would love to have a look next time I'm in the area. It's run by a young girl who loves the whole make do and mend type thing, which i have to admit i also have a soft spot for, and could definitely be a good about. She also runs workshops of how to make things etc which could be fun!

Anyway, that's enough of me for now... I'll cya soon for a creature update!!

Peace (Y)

trials and tribulations

So i'm home for summer, been here for two weeks now. I know i've passed first year with a 2:1 average (I somehow managed to pull 3 firsts in some units this year!!! huzzah!!!)  and Have nothing really to think about exams or any deadlines etc. But yet I am somewhat more tested than usual.

It's an awkward time living one half of my life in one place with one set of people, and the other half in another. I love both places entirely, but they are such different lives that they result in two different versions of myself. This would be fine, as there are as many versions of ourselves as there are contexts according to various scholars, but my problem is i like my home self significantly less than my other one.

There's nothing awful about her. She's not some kind of psycho murderer or anything like that. It's just that home me is lazy, and mopey, and doesn't get stuff done. Home me stagnates day in and day out. Aspires but never acts on it, and yet gets annoyed when people try and make her do something about it.

I'm hoping when i get my summer gym membership going here it'll restore some of my uni self, as this is a big part of my motivation in portsmouth. I go there and get stuff done and it gets me in the mood to get more stuff done. so yeah, i'm hoping that will change things. if i ever get a move on arranging it. I'm in romford tomorrow, so hopefully i'll go in and talk to them. hopefully.

Also, all the work i did on myself has gone back again. that's the thing about going home, it kinda pushes a reset button without you realising. My teacher described moving as 'unplugging yourself from one bubble and back into another' and i spose that's true. But I really became someone i was a little proud to be before i left uni, and now i'm just back to square one, except now i'm even more self aware when i do somehting i don't lke. I recently did something i haven't done in ages, and i've been feeling terrible about it all day. and it's all cool, i've made it better again, but i feel terrible because i didn't so much let it happen as it just happening, naturally, because it is my nature. Something i hate is part of my nature. kinda a bummer.

What else is going on in my life? Well, an awful lot. But i don't think i really want to mention them in great detail. some old demons and some family members health deterioration etc. The less said of them the better in front of people that don't understand I find. Even if they ask.

Life is suprisingly good :)

Sup!

So the last few days have been full of totally rubbishy annoying things, obsticles and sometimes just plain bad luck. But yet for some reason the world around me has been a lot less bleak recently, and it leaves me positive regardless of any issues.

For one thing, the people i have had the pleasure of meeting recently, just random strangers in shops and supermarkets and stuff, have all been really nice. Like super nice. And it's rubbing off on me, so now i'm happy because i'm being a much nicer version of myself and reaping the rewards of passing on the happy bug :D

Also, all the work is finally coming to a close. two hand ins down, got one more on friday which still needs editing, but is done really. I also need to fill a few more sections on my project proposal form, but that wont take long either.

So yeah. There is revision to get on with of corse. But instead of thinking of it as 12 days of hell, i'm tending more towards the idea of 'oh, well in just 12 days it's all going to be over!' which is quite nice to think about!!

All in all, my recently launched project to become what i always aspired to be is well on it's way. Obviously this is only the begining, but i can genuinely feel it working. And i owe it all to someone i hardly even knew. This person had a lot of the same 'settings' in life as me but made much more out of it. Unfortunately, they died recently. Every time i get tired of life or sad, i just think 'if she had the chance to still be here, she'd probably make a lot more out of this situation, so drink a can of man up, do it, and do it well with a smile'. And I honestly can see my approach to life changing, and it feels good :)

I'm SUPER tired, only spent about 7 of the last 60 hours asleep, so i am definately intending to have a good night tonight -.-zzzzzzz

Peace out! (Y)

plans foiled by fault of biology

So I had a big fat plan today on how proactive and productive i was gunna be. Didn't sleep last night, but i'm not even tired, so i was gunna do a lot of work today. by now i should have finished polishing and printed my two assignments, and read most of if not all of the article for tomorrow. Have i done any of this? No. Why? becuase female biology is incredibly stupid. And no this isn't some kind of menstral rant or situation. It's about something less talked about but more common. I have cistitus.

It's a water infection. basically my bladder has given up on life and decided to be all inflamed and annoying. I feel like i badly need to pee constantly, but when i do go, it's just intense pain and blood. Plus i have a fever. smooth one biology. Women are pretty damn suceptable to them because of our anatomy, we have short urethra's which allows easy infection of the bladder. Personaly i would have thought this would have died out in natural selection ages ago. It's not like any animal at any point in the evolutionary chain that felt like this was gunna be up for doing a breed! Surley we would have slowly evolved longer pee tubes? Either way, I hope it goes soon, and doesn't travel into my kidneys again... that's when it gets uber painful, like hospitalised painful.

I happen to have a certain suseptibility to cistitus. Some lucky women will never get one in their entire lives, and others will hget it all the time. Apparently it can be genetic, and i know my mum suffered with them a lot in her youth. I have no idea if that's why, or if it's something else about my make up, but hey. Some things you never know. There was a time when i was about 15-17 where i used to get about two a month... looking back i don't konw how i lived. Spose i got so used to it it hardly even hurt any more. But the doctors never persued anything, mostly because i just treated most of them with home remedies, cause being on antibiotics that much wouldn't be good for anyone! But yeah, it just suddenly stopped after a few years. I do hope that this spontaneous outbreak isn't the start of another endless spout of them, i think i'd rather cut my bladder out and pee into a bag for the rest of my life.

So yeah. I've spent my day curled up in a duvet, watching copious ammounts of fresh meat, and having only proofread a paragraph in about 4 hours, going between crying histerically into my tiger hoing to fall asleep, or trying to pee my insides out. some excelent memories you make growing up, right! :(

Taking control of my own private shared space

Isn't it odd how different and seperate lives can be in the same space.

Someone can be living 5 minutes away from you, maybe even 2, but their life is entirely different to yours, and in no way linked by anything other than the scene both your lives are set in. It's like we all have our own private space in a completely shared environment. We are all in the same place in time, the same planet, same country town or road, and some even in the same house. If some people can make their lives amazing, there is no reason why we all can't have a go!

I just sudenly found it odd, almost frightneing when i realised it. Because sometimes you find people you aspire to be like, and think you're not because your lives are different, but that difference is only about you and what you've made of your experience. I know i have a few people I genuinely aspire to be like because i admire their outlook on life. But I always think, well personality is fixed, and our lives are different, so i will never be like that. However, quite often, the setting is more or less the same. Sure there are different incidents, but usually they can spring parallel to things in others lives, it just comes down to how people deal with them differently, not because their lives are different, but because they are different. Most of the inspiring people I know are inspiring because of the way they have delt with horrible situations in a remarkable way. Of corse everyone knows that people do things differently, and say it all the time. "oh, thats just how I deal with stuff like that" or "everyone deals with things in their own way". But what people forget is that it can be a choice. Just because you used one method 20 times before, it doesn't mean that you have to use it again next tiume. You can break the chain just by simply asking yourself how well did it work before? Most of us have serval coping mechanisms that are not exactly healthy, i'm sure. Or perhaps a particular mindset towards things etc. If it's not how you aspire to be, then you CAN just change it with a few simple realisations, self awareness and a bit of motivation.

So i'm going to be a bit different from now on i think. I hope. I'm going to be what I aspire to. And i'm going to make it work because I am all I need to make it work. Everything else is ready and waiting; it has been the whole time. Just waiting for me to make this realisation. So yeah. I want to be way more creative, and a lighter personality, more funloving and aspirational. And i want a bit more confidence and to let my humour out a bit more (not to be confused with creepy humour, i will keep that locked up, that isn't exactly light personality material :p)

And now back to my miserable revision, but hopefully with a somewhat less miserable me :)

 

Peace out! (Y)

Good morning world! today i'm ready!!

Ok, so i woke up really early this morning, at like half 7 or 8, im not sure i never looked at the time. /and i had the WORST headache i have ever experienced in my life. i genuinelly would have believed it if someone said to me 'don't panic, but you've been stabbed repeatedly in the eye which has pierced through your skull and caused a bleed in the brain'. So i stumbled around my room (yes stumbled because i could hardly concentrate to put one foot in front of the other) found some anadins, took them and went back to bed to try and sleep.

About half an hour ago, i woke up again, and i feel brilliant! Not only does my head feel fine, but i had the best dream i think i have ever had in my life. For those of you that know me well, I am not exectly the i have everything about my wedding planned and decided and i can't possibly wait i want it now kind of girl, even though i'm engaged. Don't misinterpret that at all. I deffinatrly am excited to marry Nathan, and i love him excesently etc etc, but i just don't let myself get excited about something a few years away yet. Last night i dreamed it was happening. We were getting married. And it was absolutely fantastic. absolutely beautiful not because of any of the 'stuff' but because of the moment, and him and all that. naturally i woke up superbly happy, because i thought i'd been married the previous day. Though i am a little disheartened it wasnt real, i can now find solice in the fact that i get to do it again, and be a little more concious :p

Yeah. So that happened :p Otherwise, i have other good news. I have basically completed the personality essay, just one little explination to write which will be less than 50 words. Then it just needs editing, which i intend to do at a later date.

Also I think i may have come up with a cracker for my disserattion idea. It just came to me, out of the no where's!! I think i'm going to see if strong regional accents affect identifiability as much as different languages do. boom! Just need my tutor's approval and then i can get that one on the road!

I was going to start practicals today, but i might do that later later. Maybe now i'll get back down to some revision note writing... need to get that show desperately on the road!

... I also might have a cheeky interwebby shop around. I quite feel like a naughty spend if i find some good deals... maybe some better made wedge! :p

peace out!

Things are going well...

So in the past few days i've managed to blitz through over half my workload. I'm now at a count of about 4000/7100, which is excellent, and if my plan goes well, that'll be up to or near enough 5900/7100, and totally eradicated in the weekend :)

Then it's just revision notes and dissertation work to go, which i have just under 3 weeks and 2 weeks to do respectively, which on their own without all the other assignments is totally doable i feel (yay :))

I've been really lucky with my unit leaders and the assignments. Just when i got to a point where i was like 'i don't really know how/if i'm approaching this correctly, and i don't think i have anough content to fill the word count, both the unit leaders gave absolutely excellent lectures about the necessary format and content of them, which naturally has spurred me on excellently whilst it all remains in my head. hence how i've managed to bump my personality essay up to 2/3 done in the past hour or so, and how i managed to write half my youth justice essay in one night. This is excellent news, and I'm feeling so much better. The giant snow-under is thawing ^^

Other than that, i don't have much else to say, cause my life isn't very exciting atm appart from work lectures and gym... intending to go at 5 today for an hour.

Oh, we do think someones illegally running a company form our adress... letters for a known ex tennant continuously arrive from, and we have been told he has an awful lot of debt and owes our landlord thousands in unpaid rent over the 2 years he lived here. But recently, we've been getting loads of letters adressed to the company 'students 4 student houseing' that are co adressed to this ex tenant and another guy. We looked it up,and sure enough, they are running a business, and have obviously given his old address as the place probably as a text dodge or so they're untraceable or something, who knows? we're going to inform our landlord. He should probably know there is a business apparently running at his property :p

Well guys, you've been fabulous procrastination, but now i'm off to get that remaining 1000 words done on the personality essay before the gym session... wish me luck!!!

So yeah, thats insane :p

Things are looking up...

Ok, so since i last had a moan on here, things are looking up :)

Made this (not finished cause i need some yellowing, tissue paperey, old piano music, what i cannot find atm... suggestions as to where i can get some?

I got a refund for my boots, not much bother there except that as a guest checkout it was very hard for me and the woman to contact each other, but that'e ebay's fault, not hers. I'm hoping since she said i didn't have to send them back, that there may be a way i can fix them? i'll go find a shoe mender and pester them about it :p

I'm eating healthier again and going to the gym/swimming and weights and stuff every day, so things there should be looking up soon enough as soon as it takes effect, come on size 8 bum!!!

And work seems to have FINALLY kicked off, and not a moment too soon! i've only got 2 weeks to finish the lot and then it's straight on to revision, though i wanna write up my notes for at least one unit in the next 2 weeks too... My plan is to get practicles as good as done today if i can. Then i've only got one and a half essays left as well as note wrtting. think i can get the odd half done by the weekend, and maybe the attention and memory lectures written up ready for postering at a later date. Then i've only got one more essay that i want done by next wednesday, about 6 leactures to write up (several of which are not essential as they don't need the textbook me ans sacha share, so it's maybe like 3-4)  that i want done by next friday and a dissertation plan/form which I can do over the following weekend and monday hopefully... can i do it? we'll see :s

My only probem now is dissertation ideas... or rather the lack of them. and im just not motivated to go and find some, but i need to hand my proposal form in on the 11th... gotta decide and read relevant stuff pretty speedily!!! :s oops!

P.s., broke girls isn't as bad as i thought it'd be. Or is that just procrastination talking? :p

broken boots and awful assignments!!

Such a trecherous day!!! Can't believe how quickly it turned around!!

It started really well, went to tesco's and bought loads of wheat/gluten free stuff and things for my uni return (yh, i'll explain that in a minute) and got treated to lunch out by my lovely mum :)

We then nosed around the shops a bit and i bought two tops for half price in a sale, megascore!!

However, here it turned a bit sour. As materialistic as it sounds, the realisation that my boots had broken ruined my day! They were new on, the first time i'd ever taken them out! Plus i need every inch i can give myself, and they comfortably gave me a lot!! In fact, i  would describe them as even more comfortable than my ordinary flats, which is [was] amazing!!

                                              My beautiful boots before...

                                                   My beautiful boots now :'(

Moreover, what is also sad is the immediate difference i notice that just 4.5 inches made to my treatment. People actually acknowledged me as an equal on the street and whilst pushing the trolley around. I didn't get treated like a child, because i was too tall to be one. People didn't walk into me expecting me to move like they usually do, nor did they 'cut me up' with their trolleys like normal as if i wasn't even there, I had a proper adults right of way for once !!! I know I am not VERY small, but at 5 ft 2 inches, people are often suprised to know that I will be 20 in a few months, exclaiming on several occasions that they thought i was just 14-16. I get ID'd for 15 films, which I understand they must if they are unsure,but still, it's just plain insulting! I even got asked if I needed a kids menus at a restaurant on two seperate occasions just last year. The kids menue is for children UNDER 12!!! It is not the biggest problem i could have, i am fully aware of that, and maybe when i'm 30 i'll be greatful, but right now it is entirely enfuriating! If I can find some more platform wedge boots/shoes to get that won't brake after a few hours, i am considering wearing them most days, just cause it makes that much difference to me.

As for the wheat/gluten thing, I have decided that as of sunday (the day I go back to portsmouth) I am going to stop eating it. This is due to it messing my system up a bit. My mum thinks I am an a typical coeliac as i present only with anemia, and digestional discomfort/pain and bloating. It is likely my mother was a coeliac before she became allergic to wheat barley oats rye and gluten on it's own, however she could not be diagnosed as you have to be eating gluten to be diagnosed, and obviously now she can't because of tghe allergy. But yh, I may be following in her footsteps with that, so i'm gunn a stop eating it mostly now so i don't build up to an allergy like she did (and cause it really hurts sometimes!! :s).

So yeah. that'll be a challenge. I have a lot of assignment stilol to get through. about 4500ish words to be exactish, and about 0 motivation :(. I also want to do a lot of revision notage for at least my cognitive exam, so i need to pick up on all that pretty speedily, but tbh now that i'm in a bad mood, i don't know if i can be bothered!!

As a final cheerier note, here is a yet to be finished 'Wublebug'

isn't he sweet? I was going to kit him out in a hat/cane/monicle/tach combo, but them i thought that was a bit serious for a multicoloured fun thing, so i'm making a plane blue version to do that on once i get he materials. I've also bought some little lace butterflies, I'll be thinkning of something to do with them soon i hope, I think my sewing hoops will be involved, but we'll see.

Well, thanks for letting me moan :p PEACEOUT!!!

Pass me the passion and bring forth the salad!

Good day to you all!!

What a sunny wonderful day!!

... that i am spending sitting inside in my non-sun-facing room -.-

But still yay at the beginings of warmth :)

So i've had an oddly proactive day already, as in i've done loads of stuff but nothing that is immediately necessary :p

I was up from 9, missed my lecture to take nathan to the coach station [ :'( ] went to the library, found loads of stuff, carried it all home... found out i do not need to attend my other lecture due to a mix up (sweet?)... did two loads of washing, changed my bed, tidyed my room a bit, ate chocolate (oops) hung washing, weighed myself again because of the novelty of my new scales (still the same as yesterday, dunno what change i expected there!) and now i intend to squeeze my dear books for every drop of info possible and perhaps run some back after my planned gym sesh with the girls. oh my!And it's only 3 o clock... the day is young and i may even get some practicles done, the more imediate thing i should probably have been proactive about today instead :p

I think my sudden spur on has come from a bit of a 'noticement'. A lot of my facebook pals have at least one thing or multiple things that they are really passionate about. I thought about it, and realised i do not. there arent any things i follow on the internet for updates, there is no cause i am constantly asking people to join or talking about. I am a very unpassionate person, and this is a great shame!

I genuinely find it admirable that some people have that much passion and motivation to spread around, and yet here is me, in my room day in day out not doing work as fast as i should, and not really filling my day, just wasting my precious hours on 4od... what a sham! Some people really take the mick out of people who are like that, but i think that's just stone cold jealousy that they have no cause of their own.

While i was in the library today, i realised it's a really nice place/atmosphere, and so i would very much like to spend more time there working and reading my life away doing something useful :)

So here's my plan... become more passionate, maybe find a cause that i'd quite admire commiting to (i.e. not just for the sake of having one), and more importantly... BECOME MORE MOTIVATED ABOUT MY COURSE!!!! ... also, assume the gym bunny and 'no-thanks-just-the-salad-for-me' persona :p

... I give it a week  ;)

shake shake, shake shake shake it!!

So me Emily and Sacha are on a shake diet, which is fun -.- i'm pleasantly suprised with the shakes though!! kthey taste really good!! (except the coffee one... you know how i feel about coffee!!)

So yeah. that's going well!! You're meant to have one for breakfast and lunch,and then a normal but carb low meal. You can have 2-3 snacks too as long as they're healthy and not too carby either. It's good, cause we tend to have the snacks with our lunch shake so that it's genuinely filling.. yaay :) I haven't been having them for breakfast though, i prefer something lighter in the mornings, like rice cakes or yogurt... i'm just not a big breakfast person!!

Also, we've kick strarted the gym again! I'm really getting into running. I used to be pretty alright at it in school, but i'm actually starting to get a passion for it :) I alwys used to do about 10 minutes straight running, but then last week, something clicked and i doubled it to 20, and then yesterday something clicked again and i reached 30!!! i was so happy!! We're going again today before the dreaded abs blast (i wouldn't mind it if they didn't insist on making us plank so much -.-) though i may not do that much running today cause i don't wanna die in the class, and i wanna work my arms a bit more today if all the burly men aren't hanging around the weight machines. I've noticed that a lot of the male gyming culture involves just standing around looking gormless or in the mirror rather than actually using the gym... it's quite funny watching people secretly in the mirror walls.. till they catch you :s

 right, well i'm off to collect sacha and emily for some gym fun... and then it's back to work for me after that... if i'm still alive :/

ear cuffs, ginger dreadlocks and ageing superheros

My ear cuffs finally came :) wahaayy!!

excuse me ear's redness, I put the cuff on too tight at first :p

So, just after the exodus of the coursework, the leviticus of the exam revision has begun :/ It was going excellently yesterday, but today has been somewhat of a nothing day :( only done almost 2 posters instead of 3, and I can tell the info isn't really going in today like it was yesterday... boo...urns!

So what's getting me through? well that would be my well-loved-but-till-recently-forgotten-ginger-dreads-hippy-dude Newton Faulkner :) give him a listen!!

I'm particularly loving Ageing superhero at the moment, cause i pretty much feel as tired as the song describes :s http://www.youtube.com/watch?v=_a4GSLgWTz0  

But he does cooler lighter stuff too, like U.F.O http://www.youtube.com/watch?v=23aw1480WJk

Also http://www.youtube.com/watch?v=Qdfl51Vr7qE hehee... giant afro!!

So yeah, here's a list of everything else other than a small bit of revision i've done today;

listen to endless music
watched winners and losers
watched more winners and losers :/
watched various other ridiculous things
fiddled around with my ear cuffs
eaten my weight in pasta
pretended to be married to said pasta with my housemate Sacha in the redneck voice :p
snooped around very.com
facebook
facebook
facebook
texted some people
writing this right now...

yeah, you get the picture. rrrrg!!!

But, on the other hand, I have our dear little house all to myself tonight, so I guess when I settle down to work later, I'll get a lot done, no distractions and that except those I create for myself. Wish me luck!!

So the apocalypse is almost over!!

So, written around 8,000 words, a fair ammount of SPSery and some other stuff too in just a handfull of days! I finished yesterday, and just a bit of fiddling with word counts and proof reading to go which i can do today at lesuire... it feels so nice to be done!!!

As for anything exciting, i don't really have anything exciting to report. I just had to publisise that my life has officially not ended... this time :p

ha! something incredibly curious and awkward just happened

I jus had to share this wonderful bit of life... I'm sitting at home watching Darren Brown, and the home phone rings. I pick up, and an unfamiliar voice says "hi, it's Fred, i'm just outside your door" I floundered... the voice was not familiar, but I do know a Fred, my garndad. But i was not expecting him... was it him? I decided this was the only explination, that it was him, and he didn't sound like him beause of thw cold and wind and general outsidey noises. I said oh, er, ok, just a sec and hung up.

So i go and open the door, and there's no one there, just a unrecognisable man walking past who was probably quite freaked out by me opening the door as he walked past, staring at him for a bit and then closing it again :p

I go inside and think for a bit. It must have coincidently been a wrong number that had a name of someone i would consider as a possible visitor. not hard, i know lots of differently named poeple i spose, but it just seemed oddly coincidental all the same.

About 5 minutes later, the phone rings again. I answer. The same voice says in an unsure voice "is that pam?" i reply "no, sorry, i thought i knew you when we spoke before, but i didn't, obviously, cause your not here, erm..." at this point i'm thinking sreat. i'm apologising to a stranger for not being another stranger and opening an unknown door, my life is so odd. He then replies "no, i did wonder, ok, bye". Genius. we both shared a conversation where we thought each other was and could sound like someone we knew a little bit, and decided at the same time probably it wasnt after waiting eithr outside a door or inside one for about 5 minutes like idiots.

excellent :)

wahoo!! no more dress shops!! well... almost

So my mum's picked her dress and ordered it now :) yipee!! it's really beautiful. And it also means no more 3 hour sessions on inexplicably hard seats :p Guess i'll be going to a few fittings, but that wont take half as long.

My wooden hoops came today :)

they don't look like much right now, cause they're empty, but they'll be spectacular when they're done.
I'm gunna put amterial in them, and sew all kinds of stuff on them, they'll make great wall decorations when i have a house type thing :p Just gotta find the right material and stuff...

My work is going excellently well today... hopeing to get all of occupational done by 3 or 4 today, and then i can crack on with socail, and if i really get into that i'm hoping it'll be done by some time tomorrow, leaving all of sunday monday tuesday to finish the dreaded practicles :s ah well, at least i'm confident in my other two, turns out if you really get into something, it really helps XD i feelz like a nerrrrrrd! spending all my time in my room clacking away at the keys... boy oh boy am i gunna need a huge energy outlet after this... guy session  wednesday anyone??? :p

So yeah, just thought i'd update as a break, but better get on... don't wanna fall behind my wind speed catch up!!

A new arrival!!

So some of my craft stuff finally arrived!! I got stuffing and buttons. So naturally I set straight to work on my waiting sock creature... meet buttons...

That's a patch on his knee by the way incase you were wondering what the red was :p

Hope you like him... i'm extatic at his existence because i've been waiting since summer to finish him!1 Think i might go for a sock monkey or an owl next time. Not sure how, guess i'll have to research it... or just get stuck in straight away and see what happens, which sounds more like me :p


Anyway, guess i'd better get on with the work :s I actually had a great breakthrough with social psych essay last night. I've planned the entire thing in a fair ammount of detail, so all i have to do is write that lot up, which wont take so long... oh, and add refferences to back up my points, cause i'm not allowed to have my own ideas apparently :l

Occupational protfolio is half finished now, and thet'll only take a few hours to finish because it's split into sections, which makes it easier to finish :)

As for practicles, I'm findinf this one a bit daunting, as recent marks have left me disheartened :( I can imagine this assignment being the left-till-last-rushed one... oops :p

Finally, to add to my odd phrases from the other day, 'sorry to disturb you' i find rather odd. The phrase is usually used with the intention to disturb, so it's not really sorry, is it? It's more of a 'please don't kill me but....' :p just a thought.

bruised bums, burgers and bridal dresses...

Spent 2 and a half hours in a bridal shop today while my mum tried on yet more lovely dresses! Found another possibility, the best yet in my opinion!

I wouldn't have minded the time, except that i was sitting on a little wooden stool that had to have been the HARDEST stool i have ever experienced in my life :s Genuinely made it feel like my butt was going to fall off!! I bet i'm gunna have one hell of a bruise, because my bum bones kept grating on the wood :l And to top it all of, my stomach began to raw like a lion... and for those of you who have never experienced it, that is hardly an exageration... i genuinely make people 4 rows ahead turn in shock in lectures if it goes off... i once entertained an entire exam hall with my hunger song :/ standard!

But never mind. I guess it's all worth it if my mum finds the perfect dress at the end of it! And I did get a wimpy afterwards to sooth my lion :) wahey!!!

I should now be getting on with my 50 million assignments that i have so litle time left for... but i'm cold and tired and 4od is so near!!! I may just put something on in the background as i start to jot down ideas for my social essay. I thought that one was going to be the biggest pain of all, but i've suddenly got right into it... all about alturism and leadership and possibly a bit of aggression... an odd mix, but i think it's going to link nicely... we'll see i guess!!!

As for my craft stuff or my ear cuffs, still waiting on their arrival with baited breath! At least i know all my craft stuff has been shipped, but no sign of an email about my ear cuffs, though they may possibly be comming from thailand, so i guess a longish wait is expected.

Right, on with the work... good day, good stuff!!

just a couple of curious phrases...

sitting here watching TV... it's occured to me how od some phrases are... just thought I'd hsare it...

'Only for grown ups'... well... isn't that a childish phrase in itself?

'Keep them on tenter hooks'... used in a light joviel way, but have you seen tenter hooks?...

... borderline torturous... not jokey at all!!

'keep your eyes peeled'... that's just sinister!

'all's well that ends well'... well of corse it is!

'good luck' ... a common one, but if the idea of luck is that it's a series of things that happen by chance to cause something good or bad, then wishing it won't really help... spose the sentiment's nice though!

I could go on, but it may go on forever. Well that's the english language for you!! :p Hope my packages get here soon... I would like to dtart crafting and getting some of those things up on here :)

grumpy men and rainy days

What a day!! Got endlessly wet from the rain that was practicaly horizontal because of the mini tornado going on in essex right now! But it was kind of worth it for the breakfast. Although there was this really grunpy guy who was really rude to us. Someone was banging on the fire exit, and we didn't open it because we couldn't see who it was, and it was a fire exit that said it was alarmed... of corse we wouldn't open it! Eventually, some guy got up and opened it, and was like sorry love, some people don't understand what knocking means... how ridiculous! How dare he think he could be annoyed at us because we didn't open a fire exit that said it was alarmed for some idiot who couldnt be bothered to walk 2 more minutes round to the other side. I wish i'd said what i was thinking... 'yeah, and some people don't understand what fire exit means'. What a bum!!

All in all a sucsesful couple of days though... got my bridesmaid dress sorted, and several other good things. However, I still have 3 assignments to do and only a week to get them done in... how on earth is this gunna happen? :s

what a fantastic start to the year!!

Well, the party was excelent... cheers to the hosts :) It was definately the best new years i've had so far!! And there were several curious goings on, which were hilarious... the dog that kept regecting me

And so much photobombing it was like a war zone of funny poses...

And the best bit was definately that me and Nathan finally got a wonderful photo that we're both proud of :)

Wahey!!

But anyway, how are the resolutioney type things going? pretty well. I was far more patient today with a sleepy unresponsive hungover boyfriend than i usually would... but thats only a start i guess. I also was a lot more 'yesish' both last night and today, and it's only resulted well in my opinion :)

There was something i forgot to mention... I'm planning to do the gluten free january challenge thing... I actually forgot today, but I'm gunna give it a try from tomorrow... I think I might be a bit sensitive to it, so hopefully, it'll sort my aches and pains out... and help me drop a bit of christmas... ugetme?? :p we can only hope...